Not really sure what to do with my life anymore. I know that I need to move at some point and I need to work to save up money for that to happen. Right now, the goal is to move out to AZ or somewhere else in the Southwest as it seems to be much better for my health. Less pain there for me which means more options when it comes to jobs. Of course, I still want to focus on photography, but I need to realize that it might not happen or at least, not as quickly as I would like. Such is life.

There are some people that I've kept in my life with hope that things would be good between us. It doesn't appear that is going to be the case and it is now starting to feel like they are only holding me back in one way or another. I can't allow that. I can't allow my emotions or my attachment to somebody to keep me from doing what is best for me any longer. I have done that for far too long. They have the option of being in my life or watching me move on. It is their call at this point in time.

Until things get going I'm looking for a job but with my pain issues and other problems there are not a lot of jobs I can do, and with winter approaching things look even worse. Most people don't understand, and many judge me as lazy. Fuck'em. My life, my pain, my business. There's the door, don't let it hit you in the ass on the way out of my life.